Tali'Thread vas Clan Zorah nar BSN 6.0

[TheodoricFriede]

...I thought you beat Bloodborne like 5 years ago?

Nope, only got a PS4 just recently. I know of it, seen the speedruns, lore videos, all that. Never actually played it.

.

I personally found it to be the most enjoyable From game by far.

Ive been in a SoulsBorne mood lately. Kind of forgot how much story was squandered in Dark Souls 3 though.

[Azint]

Nope, only got a PS4 just recently. I know of it, seen the speedruns, lore videos, all that. Never actually played it.

I recommend God of War, and The Last of Us if you didn't already play it way back on the PS3. Those alongside Bloodborne were my favorite exclusives for the console.

And on the topic of PS4 exclusives, I realize finally that I hate Death Stranding. I've dropped it completely, and I don't know if I'll ever return to it.

[TTTX]

I recommend God of War, and The Last of Us if you didn't already play it way back on the PS3. Those alongside Bloodborne were my favorite exclusives for the console.

And on the topic of PS4 exclusives, I realize finally that I hate Death Stranding. I've dropped it completely, and I don't know if I'll ever return to it.

I would also recommend Horizon Zero Dawn as it is also a good game for the PS4.

Death Stranding is basically a walking simulator with some combat and a lot of story, not a fan myself, liked the story and some of the performeses are great.

Not something for everyone, but I can see why people love it and why some people hate it.

[Mazder]

(that would be rugby)

Absolutely!

We do it without armour!
And without taking a break every five minutes to reset!
And the games are for longer!

[Sinekein]

I have heard a bit more on the Warcraft III Reforged issue (currently at 0.5 on Metacritic). I heard a podcast in which Koka was interviewed - he is a caster on O'Gaming TV, the most prominent eSport channel in France (if you've followed the Starcraft II scene, they're the ones who created NationWars or Iron Squid). He himself is a SCII caster but mentioned that he decided to give WC3 a try due to that release, and that the team was preparing for a revival of the scene.

He isn't even that critical himself, his tone is rather mild, because as he puts it "he never played WC3 before". Which means he is experiencing it for the first time, and it is still a fantastic RTS.

However, some of the things he mentioned sound mind-boggingly stupid. And I'm not even talking about Activision-Blizzard's vulture behavior when it comes to intellectual property, that was totally predictable (even though it won't give them PR points). No, he said that...
- there is no way to know your online score, how many games you win or lose. In 2020. Even though Battle.net did that perfectly well more than 20 years ago.
- at release, there was a slight freeze whenever a building had something added to the queue for the first time in the game. First weapon upgrade? Slight freeze. First tauren? Ditto. We're talking about a Blizzard RTS here, the kind that created the legend of the South Korean players with six arms that were able to manage their units to the nanosecond, and they release their games with glitches like this.
- there is no spectator mode. Again, a Blizzard RTS in 2020 has no spectator mode. It can be understandable on AOE2, since it was not a feature of the original game and there never was a huge competitive scene to speak of on that game, but Warcraft 3? Several of the most famous RTS players of all time played that game, and Starcraft 2 has that feature already fine-tuned.

The way they talked about it, Blizzard decided to save money by tasking another studio to do the update hoping to cash in on lower production values and nostalgia, and it is one of the most spectacular failures ever in the industry.

[Vol]

I recommend God of War, and The Last of Us if you didn't already play it way back on the PS3. Those alongside Bloodborne were my favorite exclusives for the console.

And on the topic of PS4 exclusives, I realize finally that I hate Death Stranding. I've dropped it completely, and I don't know if I'll ever return to it.

I would also recommend Horizon Zero Dawn as it is also a good game for the PS4.

*snip*

Well, then good news, because it was a bundle that came with all those games. God of War, TLoU, and HZD. Got Persona 5 and BB to go with it, since all those games seem very lengthy, this'll probably last me most of the year.

[TTTX]

Well, then good news, because it was a bundle that came with all those games. God of War, TLoU, and HZD. Got Persona 5 and BB to go with it, since all those games seem very lengthy, this'll probably last me most of the year.

especially if you want to complete and collect everything.

[Mazder]

So apparently in the last 12 days I have lost 3.8lbs in weight from what I feel is nothing.
As in I have been doing nothing different.

Since June last year I have lost about 23-24lbs in total from doing the same nothing...

I'm not complaining, but I am surprised.

So, down from 370 to now 345.
Which is good, but i've not started "trying" yet...so....what is this?!?!
I feel the same, but the scales says the numbers are going down!

[Someone With Mass]

I lost a little more than 3 lbs in a week, but for all the wrong reasons. Like...relationship drama between two friends that triggered an existential crisis that lead me having to seek emergency psychiatric help.

Before that, I couldn't sleep, I didn't get hungry even though I knew I needed food and had to force-feed myself.
All because of some dumb comments about how a certain Discord group is just taking advantage of me.

Getting better now, though. I hope.

[Mazder]

I lost a little more than 3 lbs in a week, but for all the wrong reasons. Like...relationship drama between two friends that triggered an existential crisis that lead me having to seek emergency psychiatric help.

Before that, I couldn't sleep, I didn't get hungry even though I knew I needed food and had to force-feed myself.
All because of some dumb comments about how a certain Discord group is just taking advantage of me.

Getting better now, though. I hope.

Oh damn, I am sorry to hear that!

I hope you're doing better now though!

[TTTX]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byM7uaINZVM

April 7th that when Fallout 76 will have even more bugs,

[Vol]

On my end, I'm up to 210, which actually makes me the same height and weight as Kobe was. Though he was obviously all muscle where I am not. But I'm clearly a healthy weight, as fat deposits are minimal and I have a good amount of muscle (though I badly need to work my back and core more).

[TheodoricFriede]

People pretend like Dark Souls 2 was a worse game than it was.

[Mazder]

On my end, I'm up to 210, which actually makes me the same height and weight as Kobe was. Though he was obviously all muscle where I am not. But I'm clearly a healthy weight, as fat deposits are minimal and I have a good amount of muscle (though I badly need to work my back and core more).

I honestly am unsure as to if I am going to get down to 250lbs.

Like, I am 5' 9", so I don't have a lot of height to play with to spread stuff out.

My goal for this year is to just break the 300lb mark first and foremost and anything beyond that is good.

I gotta start exercising soon or I shall end up like a flap of skin!
Urgh
That's somehow worse than looking fat to me!

[Someone With Mass]

Oh man, I could really use someone to talk to right now. Like...someone who I feel okay with just being myself around. Who isn't a psychologist.
It just feels like life is so easy for everyone else around me. They meet new people, find love, get jobs while I make no progress, have no goals because I don't feel passionate about anything in particular. I have no physical friends I can talk to and whenever I ask someone how to fix it, they mostly say something generic like "just get out there and meet people," which changes absolutely nothing, because I have no idea of how to socialize without feeling an immense pressure to say and do the right thing, which only makes me say and do whatever comes to mind at the moment and it never feels like I can be myself because of it, because I never got a chance to practice at it.

The second I find the smallest source of happiness, I cling to it for dear life to the point where it's almost driving people away too.

It really doesn't help that this existential dread is giving me constant anxiety attacks and the doctors I've been told to go to for it are so fucking incompetent and slow that it just feels like a waste of time and money.

I'm at my wit's end and I don't know what to do about it.

[Vol]

Well, I know exactly what you're talking about, and it's pretty damn common among "our sort." Seems to be an overactive part of the mind that serves no purpose but to hit us in the dick when dealing with others. Plus some luck. Some seem to build their social networks, their lives, around doing an activity, and then spontaneous friendship/romance. Which is both extraordinary and ordinary. The lack of motivation is the killer tho. All that other shit would disappear, over time, with motivation to go do a thing, constantly, for years, and the rest follows.

So you're really not alone. Not even close. It's a deeply unpleasant situation, yes. But we're all still relatively young, and I can say that at least for me, aging has a mellowing affect, and the existential dread becomes easier to deal with. Easier to ignore anxiety, because you care less what these people think. Be strong, man.

[Someone With Mass]

Well, I know exactly what you're talking about, and it's pretty damn common among "our sort." Seems to be an overactive part of the mind that serves no purpose but to hit us in the dick when dealing with others. Plus some luck. Some seem to build their social networks, their lives, around doing an activity, and then spontaneous friendship/romance. Which is both extraordinary and ordinary. The lack of motivation is the killer tho. All that other shit would disappear, over time, with motivation to go do a thing, constantly, for years, and the rest follows.

So you're really not alone. Not even close. It's a deeply unpleasant situation, yes. But we're all still relatively young, and I can say that at least for me, aging has a mellowing affect, and the existential dread becomes easier to deal with. Easier to ignore anxiety, because you care less what these people think. Be strong, man.

The irony is that the older I get, the more I think that I'll be stuck like this and it scares me like nothing else.

I definitely get the spontaneous romance part, though. Especially since it happened in a tabletop group I'm in. She even went so far as to admit as to having small feelings for me while she was dating another guy to try and make me feel better. Well, that backfired hard, since I started having these "what if" thoughts and different feelings about her, which only advanced my idea that I hesitate too much to get anywhere, since I'd been friends with her since before she met her current boyfriend.

I'm trying to convince myself that it probably wouldn't have worked out, since both she and the other guy live in the US, but it doesn't help that I keep seeing how their relationship steadily grows while I'm stuck with nothing. It makes me jealous and it makes me beat myself down even more.

The lack of motivation is also as you said the most hurting factor in all of this. I wish I could change it, but I don't know how to "simply" get out there and do something. Especially when I'm not sure if it is what I want. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy that I don't know how to get rid of.

[Sinekein]

I do not know what kind of psychologist you saw (or did not see), but as far as I am concerned one was instrumental in getting me out of my depression a couple of years back, and that is no small feat since that depression was on and off for nearly 9 years.

Thing is, the first two I saw did not work. The first one gave me pills - which I definitely do not want to get into - and the second was sort of a caricature of the "tell me about your parents" Freudian crap sort. But the third just let me vent out for a while before offering guidance that mostly was in the form of some variation of "give yourself a break". Not "stop caring about your life and give up", but more of the "stop giving yourself impossible standards" kind, by insisting on what does work in life - the kind you cannot see by yourself when you are down in the hole.

It did not work overnight, it took I think three or four months of weekly sessions, but it was invaluable. Because it helped me in an important moment - I had an important test to pass, and I got it, which landed me the job I wanted - but also because it taught me how to react when I get one of these downer episodes. They keep happening because life is not just happy rainbows and unicorns, but now they don't bring month-long despair anymore, in a couple of days I can kick myself back into shape and get on with it.

One thing to understand is that there is no easy, magical trick. If you feel like you are down a hole, to keep that metaphor going, then you won't find a Sonic bumper to instantly get out of it, it will be like climbing one hand at a time. The good thing however, is that the things you use to get out do not magically disappear once if you fall again, you can reuse them. Some work better than others, depending on your life and your personality, and you need to learn what suits you.

Trying new things might help too. If it doesn't work, well it won't make things worse, but you might find new activities you enjoy. I started dancing four years ago, something I absolutely never, ever did before, and was actually one of the things I dreaded the most in life. A colleague of mine dragged me into a course, and I enjoyed it so much that now one of my closest group of friends comes from that activity, and I practice it twice weekly, or more if there are some parties going on. I want to emphasize that it was not a lifelong dream of mine at all, or even something I ever bothered thinking about before trying it. Some activities that might sound absolutely alien, boring or stupid for you could end up becoming hobbies - I don't know, painting, pottery, crosscountry skiing...

I emphasize the plural here because as you say, if you rely on just one thing, then you are likely to have issues again if you are stopped in one way or another to do it. While having several activities always give you a backup if one is failing. It does not even have to be something hugely impressive or new either, it can just be finding satisfaction in keeping a clean home, in keeping a dietary or sport schedule, or going to see movies or theatric plays. Having diverse options helps avoiding what you mention about "clinging too hard" to what you find - and might actually help you build a social group, or to handle it better if you are having trouble in one of these activities. Again, the important thing is not to hope for some instant salvation when trying something. Just think about it making life a little bit better - one activity at a time, life can actually become good, and positivity does bring more success overall.

As for the romance part, I am of the mind that being in love does not make you happy - but happy people are more likely to have successful love stories. I don't think it is very common for love to "rescue" someone, it is better to try and find some stability and satisfaction on your own, and then think about what romance could add to it - because then it is way easier to find it.

[Someone With Mass]

I guess the thing I'm afraid of is that I'll lose the energy and enthusiasm to continue that new thing I'm doing, since it has happened a lot of times before. But it's probably because I'm not doing it with other people.

[Sinekein]

If it is an activity you do because it satisfies yourself, you are far less likely to get bored or demotivated.

The problem I think comes if you pick up something to try and impress people other than you, because in that case, a lack of results will make you question why you are doing it at all.

For example, you should go to the gym because it makes you feel good afterwards. If you do it because you want to become "ripped like [insert name here]", then you are way more likely to be discouraged. It is also true for social activities, if you try dancing or singing or playing the guitar because you want to look good in other people's eyes, you will keep comparing yourself to unattainable standards and lose motivation. But if you do it just because it feels great to sing and dance (it really does, even when you aren't that good at it), then I don't see why you would lose motivation.

[Mazder]

That's the same problem I am having with getting back into artsy stuff.

I want the end goal and not the journey to get there.
I want to be as good as I was, but I don't want to put the work in to get back there, because I have been there once before. I've done my work. I shouldn't have to do it again.
It's petty, but it's what I feel.

I don't feel the same drive of just trying to make something because all the things I want to do I can't do, and it'll take so long to get there that the vision/initial idea/inspiration is long, long dead.

The unattainable standards is my own past self!!

Right now it doesn't feel good to be reminded of how good I used to be every time I pick up a stylus, or paintbrush, pen, pencil or 3d modelling program.

The main trouble is it's all I know, all I was ever good at. And even when I was at my best I was never much good, still took ages to do anything.

[Alienmorph]

With any creative thing, the hardest thing is to start, and to keep going knowing that no matter what it's never gonna look exactly as you had it in your head, I've been there more times than I can count, and surely it's gonna be the same moving forward. THere's no easy fix for that, but if it's something you really miss doing, you should just sit down and do it, and if it takes you months to go through an art project, fuck it, it's still one more than what you'd have done if you just listened to the voice in your head telling you to not bother.

[Alienmorph]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CqykkfT8NlM

[SciFlyBoy]

Well, then good news, because it was a bundle that came with all those games. God of War, TLoU, and HZD. Got Persona 5 and BB to go with it, since all those games seem very lengthy, this'll probably last me most of the year.

So are we going to be seeing you back here in 5 to 6 months?

[Vol]

Nah, nah. I'm in no rush. My goal this year is to live extra lean, so I need to make my escapism last. Plus I got Chrono Trigger and Nier Buttbot on Steam during the holiday sale, I got my old games to faff with, I got shit I need to write (Owe a few smut stories, finish that prompt from...2018, heh, and other stuff), and so on. Good for the soul to stop consuming so much too.

[Dragaros]

And I'm back from a week long trip to Florida. Weather was nice. Visited some family. Brother-in-law who's in the navy got us into Disney World cheap via military discount.

[Dragaros]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjPPZDlXk8I

[Dragaros]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7zuJIJYInU

[Dragaros]

"Final Fantasy VII Remake key art."

[Dragaros]

"EVO 2020 official lineup."

[Vol]

And I'm back from a week long trip to Florida. Weather was nice. Visited some family. Brother-in-law who's in the navy got us into Disney World cheap via military discount.

Only been to Florida once, must've been well over 100. Going from SC to FL, still said, "Wow it's hot" when we got out of the car. Went to some hotel right next to Universal, was a fun time! One of the fonder memories I have with my mother. Glad to hear your vacation went well too!

[TTTX]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_RvOjHEZ5w

[Sinekein]

"Final Fantasy VII Remake key art."

The models are gorgeous, but Tifa's outfit is a wee bit nonsensical in realistic HD.

I wonder how much the community would have screamed in fury if she had been given way more logical shorts instead of her miniskirt.

[Someone With Mass]

Well, she's fist fighting robots and monsters, so I doubt many people care about it making sense.

[Alienmorph]

I wonder how much the community would have screamed in fury if she had been given way more logical shorts instead of her miniskirt.

From what I recall the fact she was given a small breast dowsize and a sports bra under her top ruffled more feathers than the skirt.

[Sinekein]

The skirt was there from the get go, it's just that in HD and with her fighting style she's likely going to have flashed Midgar in its entirety before you hit the 5 hour mark.

[Mazder]

I mean, ignoring the ridiculousness of it for a moment.
She's a brawler/hand-to-hand fighter.
So less clothes to weight her down and to get in the way make some form of sense.

I mean it's not much but it's something at least.

Still, I acknowledge the fan-service and don't mind it.

[Mazder]

A crossover like this?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rfh1hCLUQTI

[Dragaros]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5rMnfqL5Os

[Dragaros]

The Greater Good Faction Focus – T’au Empire

The Greater Good: Shadowsun Strikes

The Greater Good – Astra Militarum Faction Focus

The Greater Good – Militarum Tempestus Faction Focus

Regimental Standard: Scions – You, But Better

[TheodoricFriede]

O-oh my god! They added someone other than Goku!

Jesus Christ, is the world ending?

[Alienmorph]

O-oh my god! They added someone other than Goku!

Jesus Christ, is the world ending?

Considering they announced Ultra-Instinct Goku at the same time? Nahh...

[Vol]

When I was a wee lad, full in the pique of my weeaboo phase, I thought Goku was the coolest.

Now I think he's low-key a villain.

[TheodoricFriede]

When I was a wee lad, full in the pique of my weeaboo phase, I thought Goku was the coolest.

Now I think he's low-key a villain.

The only way Dragon Ball could have a satisfying ending is Goku finally going too far, his stupidity becoming too destructive and dangerous, and everyone else needing to team up to take him down.

[Alienmorph]

Speaking of Dragonball...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZy8D4B8LLs

TFS has come to the painful decision to not do Buu Saga, and end their abridged series with Episode60. Personally I'm okay with it... their version of the Cell Saga really felt like a good conclusion, and the only things I've liked (not that I hated anything but, I have never strongly liked anything else) of the Buu Saga were Videl and the last bit of character development Vegeta had, and the TFS guys have been very clear about not wanting to phone things in.

[TTTX]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4QRH0CRjb4

Well TMNT Leonardo vs Jason Red ranger from Power rangers.

[TheodoricFriede]

TFS

I dont even understand what else it is that they do. They stream I guess?

Unfortunately I'm one of the people that's going to have to jump ship. The only thing they ever really did to entertain me was... Dragon Ball Z Abridged.

[Alienmorph]

TFS

I dont even understand what else it is that they do. They stream I guess?

Unfortunately I'm one of the people that's going to have to jump ship. The only thing they ever really did to entertain me was... Dragon Ball Z Abridged.

Hellsing Ultimate Abridged was also really funny, but that has also wrapped up. I was enjoying their D&D game but then one of the players dropped out, and they had to do an offscreen party wipe and soft reboot the campaign and my interest kinda died out on that. They proved several times to be fun people, but I do think thei're gonna have an hard time outliving their own fame as "the DBZA guys".

[TheodoricFriede]

, but I do think thei're gonna have an hard time outliving their own fame as "the DBZA guys".

Well I will say this. If they actually continue doing the DBZA Shortz, (which they claim they still absolutely plan to do) they'll probably be fine. Because I watched the two they made and they are REALLY fucking funny.

Looks like its time to watch the series again... I never actually got past the early 50's. I got so annoyed with waiting I said I wouldn't watch the show again till it was done.

Guess its done.

I'm a little more bummed out than I thought I would be, but the Shortz are a definite salve.

[TTTX]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xj_O0LX8HDc&list=WL&index=25